This is the first time I've participated in any shamanic ritual and the lasting effects on my body and mind, perception and self-space lead me to believe that this is the right path for me, it is real (objectively so) and I need to pursue it.
Right now, one and a half hours after the ritual. I feel slightly, still, not grounded, but in a positive sense. I feel my actions physically are considered. I notice every movement of my hands as I didn't before and feel what I touch. My perceptions are heightened.
Background noise has become more rhythmic, like music or a beat. Which connects to what Lizzie's wolf gave her whilst journeying. He gave her a bundle of sticks and told her I must beat it out of me, I must beat with sticks. Sticks, rhythm, play.
I will write more later. I feel an elated sense of calm and wellbeing. Perhaps the little girl, the part of myself that has returned to me has given me back a sense of past comfort and well being. I hope I can hold on to this.
